From Masters to Masterpiece..

Today is the day!

I am excited!  For real,  I am beyond excited!  More like ecstatic and overjoyed.  I remember the day I received my acceptance letter into Howard University in 2012.    At the time I was working full-time as an Administrative Security Technician at the Environmental Protection Agency.  My husband and I had just celebrated our 9th year of marriage and we were privileged to be raising our amazing four children whose ages were 2, 5, 7, 13.

Before I get into the true purpose of this blog I wanted to share a quick testimony.  While I initially started the masters program part-time, mid way the Lord pressed upon me to leave my full-time job and become a full time student.  This thought was frightening to me!  In my eyes having two incomes was without a doubt needed to support a family of six.  I had repressed the thought and continued to work full time and take classes in the evening.

Just like a ball you push down in water -once you let go it floats back to the top.  For me each time I would push the thought down it would resurface even louder.  Finally instead of ignoring it I began to pray about it and did that consistently for a couple of weeks.  One evening my husband came home from work and I told him I wanted to share something that was on my heart. I’ll never forgot his response.  He said, “Whatever your feeling lead to do, I will support you.”   Well there you have it!   I stayed on my job for a couple more months and put in my resignation letter two weeks before the fall semester began.  For the first time I was enrolled as a full-time grad student.

The decision felt wrong.  I felt like I was doing the wrong thing.  It didn’t feel right because I couldn’t see how this would pan out,  yet deep down inside I knew it was what I was supposed do.   Two days after leaving EPA  I received a letter in the mail stating that I was chosen to receive a donor scholarship which would cover my tuition for the upcoming school year -including my books.  What?!?.. {Insert shout right here!}   If I had not taken that leap of faith the Lord would not have been able to show me how he wanted to provide for me.

My greatest takeaway – Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.  The opposite of fear is faith and for once in my life I had chosen faith.   This was growth for me because throughout my life and well into my adult years I battled with fear and self-confidence.  Fear of the unknown and a low self-esteem that left me walking around aimlessly, wandering with no true purpose.  I’ve battled for years with not knowing who I was and what my true purpose was in this world -which leads me into the heart of this blog.

Today is more that just receiving a master’s degree.    Today I celebrate the fact that at 37 years of age I am completely aware and accepting of who God has created me to be – In his word he calls me HIS MASTERPIECE.

My desire is for my life to be an open book.  I’ve had struggles in my marriage and challenges raising my children, we’ve struggled having one income and one car.  We’ve struggled with decision-making and maintaining balance.  In spite of each challenge I have learned to tap into God’s love for me, his thoughts about me and the way he sees me which is not contingent upon any of my outside circumstances.    I’ve made the decision to unpack my bags and live in this space.  Living in his love long enough to personalize it and embrace it as my own.  This understanding has  less to do with me and everything to do with HIM.

If you have ever been one to struggle with your self-esteem or purpose in life, I encourage you to begin to search the scriptures to find out God’s thoughts about you.  Once you can stand in the knowlege of Christ’s love- for you- that’s when purpose and destiny really begin.    Psalms 139 is a powerful reminder that we are fearfully and wonderfully made, marvelous are thy works and my soul knows right well.

God’s desire is that we come to know more about him so that we can know more about who we are.  This is where we are able to live most authentically.  God pursues and loves us always! When we don’t feel good about ourselves, when we’ve gained weight, when we’re not the best husband or wife, parent, sister and friend and even when we are.  There is nothing that can separate us from Christ’s love – not even ourselves!  The world is waiting for you to make your mark on it.  God wants to show you who you are at the core and the world needs your impact and influence.

Today as you master other areas of your life know that you are richer in knowing that you are Christ’s Masterpiece, one that has been called to re-present HIM on earth as only you can!

With all my love,

 

Kristin C. Jennings, MSW

About Kristin Cherise

I always thought that taking care of others consisted of denying myself self-care. I have realized that I am a much better woman, wife, mother, and friend when I can maintain a healthy balance within my life.
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1 Response to From Masters to Masterpiece..

  1. cwoods913 says:

    what a beautifully encouraging piece. thank you for sharing!! love you, Sissy!

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